This is the world. This is my life. These are my words.

Archive for January, 2005|Monthly archive page

"we shiver naked without our minds"

In photos on January 30, 2005 at 16:13

"What can i say.. i like stuff"

In Uncategorized on January 28, 2005 at 01:18

Whats the point of having a wish list if no one ever looks at it? So have a look at


Feel free to buy me random things.

"I am walking backwards, but i’m not going home, i am following you again"

In Uncategorized on January 27, 2005 at 21:54

You produce toxic thoughts inside my head.

The colours scream your passions, the air breathes out your name.

I shout you into the wind.

Blobs of colour walk through me twisting my mind to your will

But in the silence of darkness i can fear my own thoughts.

and we can’t walk in circles forever.

"I asked you to buy me roses, and you broke me off peices of hell"

In Uncategorized on January 26, 2005 at 21:38

I now had to face it, growing more conscious at each step of the impression that we ourselves were about to make on the rest of the contemporary world. Only like this could i become aware that what she actually knew of happiness she remembered like a photograph. And above each numbered place in the compartment there was a framed photograph of some death. “They stare at me so coldly now” she thought. She stared straight ahead in silence. How could i have been so wrong?

"Words hold no meaning"

In Uncategorized on January 26, 2005 at 01:37

At the end of the day, alone, and with growing panic in her eyes she studied his face for the first sign of disappointment. She had made no mistake this time in feeling a change in herself. “Don’t you feel it sometimes?” she asked. ” I think I feel it most of the time.” She was lying.

"When the rains are falling acid burn remember it was me who burnt the forest"

In Uncategorized on January 24, 2005 at 22:36

I remember sunsets and warm winter nights beneath the broken skylight.

Can you see me smiling?

Look between the flower beds where the snails lay their eggs. The slime train disapears.

Can you feel me laughing?

The sky is playing violins and the rocks are dancing ’round. But don’t stop spinning yet.

Can you hear me screaming?

"This is my brain*cracks an egg*this is my brain on drugs *flushes egg down toilet* any questions?"

In Uncategorized on January 19, 2005 at 13:57

I though i was feeling sort of shitty because one year ago today i was dumped. But it seems that i am actually experiencing what people call a hangover. Its my first! *beams* but i feel kind of wimpish as i only had 3 pints of cider, and umm possibly a half a bottle of wine. but really thats nothing!

"I want to open my head and let the thoughts leak out before my little mind explodes"

In Uncategorized on January 19, 2005 at 13:09

Most people think in emotions and images more than words. Words distort the meaning of our thoughts. Words come with their own definitions, distortable but not erasable. I think in bold face type. Words rattle around my mind, directions and warning signs for mistakes already made.



My images are blurred and my emotions debilitating. I listen to the words like an emergency radio broadcast.



"one tequila, 2 tequila, 3 tequila…. floor…."

In Uncategorized on January 18, 2005 at 23:08

oh god im drunk. im so drunk i just typoed this line 5 times. but i refuse to pass out and i refuse to go to bed, i smell slike smoke and i dont care wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

"snowshoes dont work without water"

In Uncategorized on January 18, 2005 at 17:28

Its stopped, and is all melty.. 😦